I realize that no one, or maybe next to no one reads this, and I have some things that are very useless to say, but I say them anyway. Why is this? Because sometimes no one listens and just puting words down is enough to make me start feeling better, at least for a little while. The truth is, I'm the forgetful sort and I forgot my blog was even here. I don't talk about it, and none of my friends read it to tell me they enjoyed something that I wrote, or that they are looking forward to my next post, therefore, it becomes easy for me to overlook posting my thoughts.
Between now and then, I'm becoming painfully aware that I need to make some very hard choices in my life. People that I used to be very good friends with and I love very much have made the choice to point out my faults as I grow closer to Christ instead of encourage the changes that I have made so in my life. The choice is becoming, do I continue to endure the painful, and sometimes humiliating comments that these "friends" say to me, or do I continue to count them among people that I care about, but spend less time with them.
Before I had thought that just cutting them off completely and no longer spending the time was the way to go, but after speaking with my mentor, he's helped me realize that maybe I'm the only person that speaks to the Grace of Christ, and maybe some day they will see that I have changed and ask me what they can do to change themselves. After all, many of the heroes in the bible endured far worse treatment from people that were close to them. I can at least deal with a few comments that I know don't speak of my heart for them, or my heart for God.
So, I'll write again in the future, and I don't know when this is going to be, but between now and then, maybe something will happen to glorify God in their life and they will thank me for being an example to them of love and understanding.
