I sometimes still get depressed when I look back over the last two years of my life and realize all the opportunities that I've missed. I've been out there, I've put myself on the line, and I failed. Or so I thought I did. For a long time I have been afraid to step out and take the chance again because it is... oh so painful when you are laying on your face begging for someone to pick you up. Fear kills you. Fear takes you away from all the things that you want to do, but worse, fear takes you away from all the things that God wants you to do.
Transformations take place all the time. The country elects new leaders all the time. Businesses hire new employees, and some people reach a point where they know things will be better if they just went in a different direction. Fear keeps your feet on the ground. Someone told me once that you just have to pick a direction and go. Even if it's the wrong direction. You will find that you can change where you are headed a lot easier when you are moving. Stuck in a rut, stuck in place!
Somehow, and I'm not quite sure how, I have opened my eyes. For so long I just wandered around with them shut and just waited for someone to lead me in a direction. I was moving, but had no direction. I wasn't even moving in the wrong direction, mainly just circles. Finally I opened my eyes, blinked away the fog and realized that I needed to follow God. I've tried to for a long time, but never really knew how to.
What do you do when you don't know? You ask... So I found someone and I asked. Then I asked someone else, and someone else, and then people got annoyed with me for asking the same questions again and again, but you know what finally happened. I found out how to pursue God. My eyes were opened and my faith grew. As my faith has grown I've gone from wandering in circles to heading in a straight line after the One who created it all. Wouldn't you know that things are starting to pick up for me. All as a matter of Faith.
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